I want to be skinny. A healthy skinny. I want to be the girl I read about in books, the girl I see in movies. I want to have more friends, and not be the chubby friend. Because I’m not fat, but I don’t want to be chubby, either. I’m just sick of going nowhere. I don’t care if it takes all summer, I will lose these stubborn pounds. I really need to buy a new scale, too. Fuck this. Maybe if I was less chubby, and more skinny, people would actually want to be my friends instead of thinking I’m fucking weird. uuggghhhh.